Came Here for Love

You came to study
But I came here for love
The devils whispering in my ear
But I trust the Lord above

They say that you have to confess
And let her know you have feelings for her
I fell in love in autumn
But I told her in the summer

What I saw in her eyes
Its was nothing but a miracle
I was having doubts about my beliefs
But your eyes made me feel spiritual

They told me there is a god
But girl you're not an angel
You're just human like me
Girl you're so beautiful

I know you're on another level
So let me level with you baby
I desire you more than anything
And I want you to be my lady

It might be a little crazy
But ever since I met you, I've never been more sane
Ever since I met you
I've never been the same

While you were studying them law books
I was studying the laws of attraction
Girl you're not like most girls
In my eyes and by my definition, girl you are perfection

When I see my reflection
And do some inspection
I just want to let you know Girl
I felt a connection

Falling in love with you was a sin
5 years later You became a solicitor
Yeah falling in love with you was a crime
So i guess I need myself a lawyer

Girl why are you prosecuting me
I came here for love
Why are you persecuting me
When I'm telling you for the millionth time I came here for love.

ATTENTION

When I first met you
Your eyes were seeking my attention
You could say I was attention seeking
But girl you're perfection

So how could I ignore your beauty
Girl you're the one I fancy
Fancy that
But I'm getting a little antsy

Yeah I'm getting nervous and shy
It ain't normal for a guy
But I aint your average
And neither are you,  girl you so fly

The way you smile
Yeah it makes me so content
When ever I'm with you
I just want to confess and vent

Psychologically speaking
I'm so in love you could call me crazy
You aint like most girls
Girl you're a lady

And you know how to pull my strings
Girl you're my conductor
Without you I was a mess
But with you my life is in order

Now that we're together
Its like a match made in heaven
They say life is hell
So what do you reckon

Our life is like a reckoning
Your attention is beckoning
Every decision I make
Its got me second guessing

We were like j-Lo and A Rod
But now we're beefing for no reason
Like taylor and Katy
I know you trying to get even

What are the odds
You're always seeking attention
Our relationship was a roller coaster
But now without you I'm bound for my destination.

DOWN

You said you're always down
But sometimes you're just up there
You say why you always high
But Bitch i don't care

I liked things back then
In a period of honeymoon
We weren't even married
But I was hoping for that soon

You could say that we clicked
But fast forward a few clicks
And time is playing games
Yeah its going so quick

Towards your hints
You could say I was a bit slow
Between me and you
I couldn't say no

First time I proposed
You said maybe
Second time I proposed
You said you're my baby

Girl why you always crying
And why don't you laugh at my jokes
Whenever we argue a little
You say you need a smoke

Behind every strong man is a woman
You say you need strength
But lately I feel so weak
I struggle when I take a breath

Girl you take my breath away
Why am I always away
Its because of you
I work night and day

Its because of you
I'm trying to make a billion
Hashtag money team
Fuck it I'm aiming for a trillion

So girl are you down
For the money and the fame
Girl are you down
Love isn't a game

BE THERE

She said that she will be there
But it's like she's always missing
I found love in your eyes
Your lips I want to be kissing

Kiss of death
Because of you I'm revived
I'm dying to see you
Because of you I'm alive

When my life was going nowhere
You showed me the directions
Navigated me to falling in love
Girl you are perfection

You're like my lawyer
And my therapist
I know you got my back
But girl I insist

Let me be the man
You're my very own supergirl
You can call me  superman
Cos you're my kryptonite, my pearl

You're my personal chef
And my nurse
The moment I met you
You lifted my curse

What did I do to deserve such a gift
Its like I've won the lottery
I'm the luckiest man in the world
And I aint lying when I say my eyes are watery

Girl you make me cry tears of joy
You make me laugh and cry simultaneously
They say love is blind
But we fell in love spontaneously

Miraculously is an understatement
No we aint over the top
Cos this love is mutual
We're at so much peace, you can hear a pin drop

Needle in a haystack
They said falling in love was impossible
Like fitting a camel through the eye of a needle
But as long as we be there for each other, we're invincible

MY TYPE

I had the stereo on full blast
She said I'm just her type
You knew I was the one
So what's with all the hype

There's no such thing as happy without sad
Yeah I'm a usual bad boy
I know you love me
so stop being coy

Stop being shy
I know you're confident on the inside
Falling in love with me is risky
You could call it suicide

You could call it a bad decisions
But who said we're deciding
The world's pulling us apart
From each other and dividing

Girl why are we fighting
When we're made for each other, it's destiny
Despite all the questions
Me and you are meant to be

Yeah you don't like it when it's boring
Or when I procrastinate
We aint got any silver spoons
But you love a full plate

Girl I really miss you
And I hate it when I come home late in the night
Girl stop acting angry
We both know you love staying up for me till midnight

You love it when I'm drunk
And when the truth spills
You love cleaning up the vomit
And slaving around when I'm ill

Yeah I think I'm sick
Cos I've never been so in love
Girl I'm thinking of proposing
But I need a push and a shove

They say attraction is a law of physics
But who said opposites must attract
The moment that I met you
Girl I knew you were exact

NO PROMISES

The moment I met you
You said no promises
If that's the case
Why am I always buying you roses

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I knew you were mine
The moment I met you

They call it love at first sight
Love at first glimpse
When alls said and done though
I can't get enough of those red lips

With each word she spoke
I let her in my heart
That's why I asked for your digits
But it's making me number when ever we're apart

Whenever you're far
I look forward to you coming home
It always leaves a scar
When you're not here, I feel so alone

There's no time like the present
But I wish I could rewind
The moment I fell in love
It blew my mind

My heart is complete
Cos you're the second piece
Ever since I met you
My heart has been in peace

They say rest in peace
But girl when you go
I'm going to be a mess
For sure

Yeah there is no question
And nobody has all the replies
So who knows what the future holds
All we can do is ask why

You said no promises
So all we can do is hope
Love isn't simple
And life isn't a joke.

SHOW YOU LOVE

You say you want to show me love
But it's like we hardly get the time
You say forever and always
But you don't feel like mine

Pardon my suspicion
Its not that I don't trust you
The first time I saw you
My mind jut blew

Your eyes were staring
And your black hair was swaying
Girl I'll never leave you
I promise that I'm staying

She said her name was Hailee
And straight away I developed affection
Every single photo of you
Was nothing but perfection

They call it picture perfect
Girl you deserve respect
Yeah the feeling is mutual
Ever since out paths intersected

Girl I was invested
I was interested
You said you felt the same
But the situation I don't want to press it

We fell in love
Even though we were on the edge of seventeen
You make me feel so alive
And in the past I was a machine

Every time I had a moment of doubt
You had true grit
Ever since I met you
Girl I don't quit,  girl I won't quit

Cos You aint like most girls
Most girls would just run away
And hit rock bottom
But you told me to love myself every day

Girl I was starving
But when I see you I'm instantly full
Without you my life is so empty and you push me
So much so that in the end I can't resist your pull.

FAKE FRIENDS

They call me fake
They call them self friends
I guess it's true when they say
On them I can't depend

Back in the day we were besties
And we faced the worst
Now that you're gone
I feel like I'm Cursed

Blessed to be alive
But I wish you were here
You're on the other side of town
Yeah I wish you were near

In you I put my trust
But I guess you can't change luck
Your secrets are safe with me
But lately I don't give a fuck

Sometimes I feel like disclosing everything
But then it's case open
Case closed
Yeah I feel so broken

I want to turn over a new leaf
They say the root of the problem is you
That's why I'm moving on and forward
Cos  my life is like a zoo

I'm the elephant in the room
Sometimes I want to kidnap you and put you in the trunk
Back in the day you assisted me with the alley oop
But now I'm going for the slam dunk

All of my life I never had many friends
So i guess it hurts more when they leave
Yeah I never had many friends
But why should I grieve

Why should I cry when it's you that left
My intentions are always right
Success is presence
And to tell the truth I've had enough of your lies

So i guess it's fuck fake friends
And i aint saying I'm real
But ever since you left
My life has been ideal.

SOMETHING JUST LIKE THIS

She said she just wants normal
But I guess that was impractical
She didn't know about my autism
So she thought I was an animal 

My mind is a drawing board
And I'm always writing
I'm constantly busy with my penmanship
So i guess it's no wonder that we were always fighting

I wrote hundreds of love poems about you
But  you say I don't talk
Yeah when push comes to shove
You say that you'll walk

Its clear you're scared of being lonely
But you're also scared of leaving
You say your life is shit
And even though nobody's died still you're grieving

There's no visible wounds
But inside your heart is bleeding
Lately you've been feeling cold
If that's the case then just turn on the heating

You say you want to kill yourself
But you don't have any Dutch courage
I'm addicted to Dutch weed
Because the stuff around the corner is average

Girl you're my drug of choice
But to my autism there just no solution
We could be the happiest couple
Though who am I kidding that's just a delusion

You say you don't like it when I'm choleric
But little do you know I'm having an episode
You wish i was dead
But when I'm really gone don't come to my grave in ode

You can call me dr frankenstein
Cos I've created a monster
In the past I was your hero
But now you say I'm an addict and you're my sponsor

She said she wants normal
But that's just a fairy tale
I confessed my autism to her
Next thing you know she packed her bags and headed for Wales.

LONELY

Scared to be lonely
Girl you always on my mind
You say my heart isnt in the right place
But I've left my past life behind

Got the whole road ahead of us
So let's take off to the sky
Girl Why are you so grounded
And obsessed with separating truth from lie

Why can't you just trust me
Or have some faith and patience
I told you nothing but the truth
But still you question my innocence

Girl you're my guilty pleasure
My aim is to make you glad
You say you've had enough of pretending
And this relationship is driving you mad

Separating would be sane
Yeah that's the big question
To which No one has the answers
So we continue arguing in frustration

I miss finishing your sentences
Or saying what's on YOUR mind
Lately I've lost all clarity
And nothing seems to makes sense to me in my own mind

We're not the same as we used to be
And it has nothing to do with the clock
You say you want your own space
But then you come back home after a walk around the block

Your mind is far from clear
Mine is always dirty
I confess that I desire you
Plus I might be hungry and thirsty

My heart is drowning in your love
Yet lately my mind is full of hate
We used to read the same book
But nowadays we aint on the same page

Yeah we stuck with each other for an eternity
Cos we're scared to be lonely
So Regardless of what the future holds
You'll always be my one and only.

IT AIN'T ME

Fell in love so hard
My heart came out of my chest
They say treasure the ones you love
But girl you were the best

I always tried to do whats right
But still you up and left
Left me on my own down in the dumps
I feel so depressed

You didn't like it when I drank
Or when I came home so late
You held the bar so high
But in the end I was the same

Same old me
But you changed my life
Girl I loved you so much
And I wanted you to be my wife

Each sip of whisky was for you
In your dedication
I popped pill after pill
But girl you were my medication

I stayed out in the dark
Talking to myself
You so beautiful but you can't escape your ugly past
And your self

So i guess you could blame me
Its all my fault
Falling in love with me is toxic
Its like rubbing wounds in salt

If me and you was destiny
Or a possible kismet
Then why is the world pulling us apart
And why is it that we met

Question after question
It clouds my mind with suspense
Like everything it ends in a rain of tears
And it gets so tense

Now me and you are the past tense
I question my presence
Living a life without you is absurd
That's why slit my throat and drift off to inexistence

INDEPENDENCE #70

Growing up they called me a Paki
But I told them I was British first and then Pakistani
And now when I look back maybe that was my mistake
Sometimes I felt like a mistake because all I ever seemed to do was mistake after mistake
When alls said and done though all I ever wanted was independence
Then again, growing up in a Pakistani family meant I had to be dependent
Back in the day i was dependent on independence
Independently wishing I was dependent
Though when alls said and done you live alone and die alone
Growing up they called me a Paki
Sometimes I felt that it was my nickname
But little did I know, that it was their taking the mick name
And I aint taking the mick mate but no Paki aint my name
They call it name calling but most of the times they had Paki on speed dial
So i guess it's no wonder why they always left a message after my beep
Yeah after my beep that's why in class I fell asleep
You call me Paki but in your dreams i creep and I'm your worst nightmare
They said that we Pakistanis have a tight fist
But back in high school i never had a fight so get the gist
Growing up they all called me Paki
But now that I look back at the moment yeah I was a Paki
And my biggest inspiration was Amir Khan
So much so I wrote a piece about him in my gcse exam
Now I don't know what I regret more
Is it my gcse's exams or is it the fact that I wrote about Amir Khan
Yeah they said we Pakistanis have a tight fist so somebody tell Anthony Joshua I'm ready for a fight
Yeah I'm ready to wrong all my rights
Fight or flight? All I ever did was take flight
Growing up they called me a Paki
And fact of the matter is that I want to kill myself
You can blame my health and my depression
You told me to chase wealth now I'm broke and in recession
Yeah Bitch this class is in session
Moreover if you about peace then I'm about peace
But if you step to me Bitch I'll step on your grave
So you can call me a terrorist but Bitch I'm a pacifist, activist call me an anarchist
Yeah Bitch you aint fucking with my flow but this is a poem
Remember the name Sagey because soon the whole world will know him
Growing up they called me a Paki.

DIVORCE

They say that nice people don't necessarily fall in love with nice people
Thus I guess it's true when they say that every relationship consists of the good as well as the bad
Its often said the truth is ugly while lies are the complete opposite
Fact of the matter is that I always endeavoured to tell you the truth
Though again and again you accuser me of lies
Time and again it was your suspicions that would judge my innocent actions
All in all, I only had good intentions but what good did that ever bring me
You said you never intended to marry me but still that doesn't make me want to divorce you
Because when alls said and done you're still close to my heart even though we're far from happy
This marriage is a joke? Rather, this marriage is sad
Hence the reason why it's led you to become so depressed
Anything I say merely leads to further stress and trouble
Back in the day many were open antagonists of the thought of us getting married 
Then again that didn't dismay us or prevent us from getting married
They say that the Islamic way of getting married is to go through the father of the girl for their daughters hand in marriage
However when I went to her house to speak to her father
It only led to people pointing their fingers at us and spreading lies as well as rumours
At the end of the day though we knew that we weren't in the wrong
So that didn't make us bother about what other people said
In fact it only made the idea of us getting married to becoming a reality sooner than we expected
As time passed I remain persistent and persevered
Because when alls said and done acceptance is better than having great expectations unfulfilled
Nevertheless fast forward a couple years and it still seems like this marriage isn't real
So much so that I pinch myself sometimes to make sure I'm awake and not in a dream
Its often said that a husband should stay quiet if they don't like the food they're eating
Then again sometimes I can't help but to ask my wife for a pinch of salt
She tells me to stop rubbing salt in the wounds
Though truth is I just wish to improve her ability to cook
Every time I get near I feel afraid that she might pepper spray me in my eyes
Yet at the end of the day she's done much worse to me and I aint talking about physical abuse
On the other hand I'm talking about the times she's hurt my feelings and hurt me emotionally
For instance all she and her friends ever do is back bite their husbands to each other
Though it begs the question why can't she ever see and focus on the good
Why does she always have to focus on the bad as well as the negative
And as soon as she came home I got into a huge fight and thus I asked for a divorce in anger
But according to Islamic law divorce only occurs when you ask for it three times
On top of that if it's said in anger that only makes the divorce more true
So I guess it's false when they say third time lucky
In Islam the third time makes divorce occur
The only thing left to do is to sign these legal documents
And the sad thing is that I received them in the post on international Women's day
But the thing that's even sadder is that those people who doubted us before marriage were right
Alll in all this isn't a matter of gender nor do I have an agenda in not signing the divorce papers
So i guess it's true when they say that nice people don't necessarily fall in love with nice people.

FALL

She said the only time I come is to watch her fall
But I guess the only person to blame for rising to the occasion is me
We play the blaming game and fact is there are no winners
Lord knows losing you isn't a life worth living
I'm dying to tell you the truth but every time I say those three words, you say I'm lying
So then I scream I hate you, and funny thing is she believes me
Lately I've had enough of believing in this relationship
You say the ship is sailing but I jumped out at the shore because I was sure
I guess you could say that I'm drowning in your love
Then again I don't need you to be my life guard
Fact of the matter is that I want to jump off a plane with you
Because it's true that your love makes me fly
On the other hand lately it's like we're crash landing
Girl will you be my parachute and help me land on my feet
One foot in the grave? I'm prepared for both feet to be in the grave as long as I'm buried next to you
I'm buried in sand up to my head, though for you it's the complete opposite
In other words you've lost your head, you've lost your cool even though you're smoking hot
We bought a house together but it's you that makes it a home
When I'm without you I feel nothing but loneliness
Back in the day you were the one that decorated and refurbished the whole house
However now that we're close to separating you're stripping off the wallpaper
When I ripped up the divorce papers, it befuddled me how it just made you laugh
And it makes me wonder whether our marriage was always a joke
Moreover I know that I could only afford taking you out for a meal once a month
But that doesn't give you the right to count the fact that you provided 3 meals a day for us
Because when alls said and done Its the thought that counts
Lately I've been counting on a calculator more than you
Some people wish for us to be divided and I think of them as our enemies
What's more is that I can't seem to add up how our relationship has become more complicated than algebra
All in all I hate the fact that I have to see my son only once a week
I go to your office but I find that you're not there
When I go to the bedroom I see you burning our wedding album
And now our wedding is just a memory that will be forgotten in the future
You rush downstairs but then I grab your hand at the top of the stairs
Then all of a sudden you take a fall down the stairs somehow
I run down to check on you, but it's too late because you're already dead
When alls said and done though that's not the end of this story
Because that small fire you started in the bedroom turns into an even bigger one
In other words it spreads throughout the whole house
I think of our baby sleeping in his crib but then the chandelier falls on my head
On top of that the fire reaches  downstairs and smothers the whole house
All in all my last thought is of our innocent child that died because of our recklessness
She said the only time I came around was to watch her fall
But now that this terrible accident has happened, our souls have risen and gone to heaven.