DIVORCE

They say that nice people don't necessarily fall in love with nice people
Thus I guess it's true when they say that every relationship consists of the good as well as the bad
Its often said the truth is ugly while lies are the complete opposite
Fact of the matter is that I always endeavoured to tell you the truth
Though again and again you accuser me of lies
Time and again it was your suspicions that would judge my innocent actions
All in all, I only had good intentions but what good did that ever bring me
You said you never intended to marry me but still that doesn't make me want to divorce you
Because when alls said and done you're still close to my heart even though we're far from happy
This marriage is a joke? Rather, this marriage is sad
Hence the reason why it's led you to become so depressed
Anything I say merely leads to further stress and trouble
Back in the day many were open antagonists of the thought of us getting married 
Then again that didn't dismay us or prevent us from getting married
They say that the Islamic way of getting married is to go through the father of the girl for their daughters hand in marriage
However when I went to her house to speak to her father
It only led to people pointing their fingers at us and spreading lies as well as rumours
At the end of the day though we knew that we weren't in the wrong
So that didn't make us bother about what other people said
In fact it only made the idea of us getting married to becoming a reality sooner than we expected
As time passed I remain persistent and persevered
Because when alls said and done acceptance is better than having great expectations unfulfilled
Nevertheless fast forward a couple years and it still seems like this marriage isn't real
So much so that I pinch myself sometimes to make sure I'm awake and not in a dream
Its often said that a husband should stay quiet if they don't like the food they're eating
Then again sometimes I can't help but to ask my wife for a pinch of salt
She tells me to stop rubbing salt in the wounds
Though truth is I just wish to improve her ability to cook
Every time I get near I feel afraid that she might pepper spray me in my eyes
Yet at the end of the day she's done much worse to me and I aint talking about physical abuse
On the other hand I'm talking about the times she's hurt my feelings and hurt me emotionally
For instance all she and her friends ever do is back bite their husbands to each other
Though it begs the question why can't she ever see and focus on the good
Why does she always have to focus on the bad as well as the negative
And as soon as she came home I got into a huge fight and thus I asked for a divorce in anger
But according to Islamic law divorce only occurs when you ask for it three times
On top of that if it's said in anger that only makes the divorce more true
So I guess it's false when they say third time lucky
In Islam the third time makes divorce occur
The only thing left to do is to sign these legal documents
And the sad thing is that I received them in the post on international Women's day
But the thing that's even sadder is that those people who doubted us before marriage were right
Alll in all this isn't a matter of gender nor do I have an agenda in not signing the divorce papers
So i guess it's true when they say that nice people don't necessarily fall in love with nice people.