DIVORCE

They say that nice people don't necessarily fall in love with nice people
Thus I guess it's true when they say that every relationship consists of the good as well as the bad
Its often said the truth is ugly while lies are the complete opposite
Fact of the matter is that I always endeavoured to tell you the truth
Though again and again you accuser me of lies
Time and again it was your suspicions that would judge my innocent actions
All in all, I only had good intentions but what good did that ever bring me
You said you never intended to marry me but still that doesn't make me want to divorce you
Because when alls said and done you're still close to my heart even though we're far from happy
This marriage is a joke? Rather, this marriage is sad
Hence the reason why it's led you to become so depressed
Anything I say merely leads to further stress and trouble
Back in the day many were open antagonists of the thought of us getting married 
Then again that didn't dismay us or prevent us from getting married
They say that the Islamic way of getting married is to go through the father of the girl for their daughters hand in marriage
However when I went to her house to speak to her father
It only led to people pointing their fingers at us and spreading lies as well as rumours
At the end of the day though we knew that we weren't in the wrong
So that didn't make us bother about what other people said
In fact it only made the idea of us getting married to becoming a reality sooner than we expected
As time passed I remain persistent and persevered
Because when alls said and done acceptance is better than having great expectations unfulfilled
Nevertheless fast forward a couple years and it still seems like this marriage isn't real
So much so that I pinch myself sometimes to make sure I'm awake and not in a dream
Its often said that a husband should stay quiet if they don't like the food they're eating
Then again sometimes I can't help but to ask my wife for a pinch of salt
She tells me to stop rubbing salt in the wounds
Though truth is I just wish to improve her ability to cook
Every time I get near I feel afraid that she might pepper spray me in my eyes
Yet at the end of the day she's done much worse to me and I aint talking about physical abuse
On the other hand I'm talking about the times she's hurt my feelings and hurt me emotionally
For instance all she and her friends ever do is back bite their husbands to each other
Though it begs the question why can't she ever see and focus on the good
Why does she always have to focus on the bad as well as the negative
And as soon as she came home I got into a huge fight and thus I asked for a divorce in anger
But according to Islamic law divorce only occurs when you ask for it three times
On top of that if it's said in anger that only makes the divorce more true
So I guess it's false when they say third time lucky
In Islam the third time makes divorce occur
The only thing left to do is to sign these legal documents
And the sad thing is that I received them in the post on international Women's day
But the thing that's even sadder is that those people who doubted us before marriage were right
Alll in all this isn't a matter of gender nor do I have an agenda in not signing the divorce papers
So i guess it's true when they say that nice people don't necessarily fall in love with nice people.

FALL

She said the only time I come is to watch her fall
But I guess the only person to blame for rising to the occasion is me
We play the blaming game and fact is there are no winners
Lord knows losing you isn't a life worth living
I'm dying to tell you the truth but every time I say those three words, you say I'm lying
So then I scream I hate you, and funny thing is she believes me
Lately I've had enough of believing in this relationship
You say the ship is sailing but I jumped out at the shore because I was sure
I guess you could say that I'm drowning in your love
Then again I don't need you to be my life guard
Fact of the matter is that I want to jump off a plane with you
Because it's true that your love makes me fly
On the other hand lately it's like we're crash landing
Girl will you be my parachute and help me land on my feet
One foot in the grave? I'm prepared for both feet to be in the grave as long as I'm buried next to you
I'm buried in sand up to my head, though for you it's the complete opposite
In other words you've lost your head, you've lost your cool even though you're smoking hot
We bought a house together but it's you that makes it a home
When I'm without you I feel nothing but loneliness
Back in the day you were the one that decorated and refurbished the whole house
However now that we're close to separating you're stripping off the wallpaper
When I ripped up the divorce papers, it befuddled me how it just made you laugh
And it makes me wonder whether our marriage was always a joke
Moreover I know that I could only afford taking you out for a meal once a month
But that doesn't give you the right to count the fact that you provided 3 meals a day for us
Because when alls said and done Its the thought that counts
Lately I've been counting on a calculator more than you
Some people wish for us to be divided and I think of them as our enemies
What's more is that I can't seem to add up how our relationship has become more complicated than algebra
All in all I hate the fact that I have to see my son only once a week
I go to your office but I find that you're not there
When I go to the bedroom I see you burning our wedding album
And now our wedding is just a memory that will be forgotten in the future
You rush downstairs but then I grab your hand at the top of the stairs
Then all of a sudden you take a fall down the stairs somehow
I run down to check on you, but it's too late because you're already dead
When alls said and done though that's not the end of this story
Because that small fire you started in the bedroom turns into an even bigger one
In other words it spreads throughout the whole house
I think of our baby sleeping in his crib but then the chandelier falls on my head
On top of that the fire reaches  downstairs and smothers the whole house
All in all my last thought is of our innocent child that died because of our recklessness
She said the only time I came around was to watch her fall
But now that this terrible accident has happened, our souls have risen and gone to heaven.